Life…As It Goes On

Thursday, 26 April 2012

Tetei Chhangte

‘When God has already decided who will be our life partner; Then why does He makes me to love someone so much Who can’t be mine??!!’ But now, I understand in God’s own plan What He does to me…

I believe,we all have one true love Somewhere in this world,I do Looking back to the month of March,2009 Where all my memories were laid down March 4th,Wednesday,2:25 afternoon In the ground corner with the smiling face Was the first day of my love life That very moment was the moment of joy and excitement For the first time in my life I found the man who spin my world around My first love for the very first time I couldn’t deny,since I met him that day I was blind to see Inside me,I was afraid to wake up from a dream and see He was the thought that starts each morning The conclusion to each day He was the smile on my face The twinkle in my eye The warmth inside my heart The fullness in my life He was all I wanted He caused tide within me He had conquered my heart It was like me and him were an equation Which created reaction in my heart He never had to question my love It was always about him I was singing about And I was all about him Spending all my time with him Enjoying the moment we had together Feeling each others’ arms through the cold night Kissing under the twinkling stars Dancing in the moonlight Feeling the pleasant breeze under the night sky Nothing compares to that moment of smile and happiness I felt his care in every second of my heartbeat I knew it was love ‘Cause the heart never lies Love always speaks But not always in words When I pray,I pray for his success And asking God to keep him by my side forever But life doesn’t always go our way Time passed by and seasons changed There comes a day,one day That in our lives,we need to make a big decision So do I,for my future I still remember in August 12,2009 begging me not to go But life is hard with its steeps and slopes Life is actually a war Leaving us in a difficult situation At the same time thinking of our future All we could do was smile as we talked on the phone Missing all the hugs and kisses we had Sleeping with the tears on my face Making promises and hoping that we’ll be together soon Months passed by so easily Within no time,a year had gone by A chapter in our lives had come to an end And another chapter was about to begin The year 2010,which brought to a new world Never thought it could ever end Never thought those memories would be gone Nothing was same as before The love we had; the closeness in our heart Nothing seemed to be that it used to Everything seemed shallow and dark Then comes the night of March 18 The night of tears and pain The night we waved goodbye Gone were the days when he was with me Filling my life with treasures Once making me rich,he walked away Stealing all my pleasures Holding his hand I let myself got lost in his eyes And discovered a new life,though momentary I could feel,in those moments,I had lived my whole life Singing the same song,we once lost in life throughout The songs were there,but the rhythm was lost The eyes were there,only the dreams were lost Everything was there,though everything was lost And life goes on somehow Rolling down my eyes,two drops of tears And that was all I had He was the one that I wanted for all times And each night I spent praying That God would make him mine again And if He would only grant me This wish I wish back Then I’ll never ask for anything again That was my only wish,to be with him again But I guess God doesn’t say “Yes” to my prayer I know God planned the best for me But it was too tough for me to handle The month of September 2011,had changed my world The coldest thing that could ever happen to me The man,the love of my life Married to a girl,a year or two younger than him My heart was broken into pieces Trying my damn hardest to breathe on the bathroom floor Wondering why it all went wrong And what the hell am I going to do about the hole in my chest!! It was like I had broken ribs On the outside,I was looking fine But inside,every breath hurts With those tears in my eyes,amidst the moonlight Among the stars in the sky,I think about him And there I was with heavy heart With my fingers crossed and eyes closed Thinking about him,only him The days we had spent together The days of joy,the days of love…. Tears rolled down my cheeks When I remember the bygone days Those beautiful days when I had everything I remember the day I first met him I wish I could forget about what we had But I know,he would never come back in my life And that’s what hurts the most!! Day and night passed like rhyme Weary blues up in the sky had got me crying When I open my eyes Looking around the world I couldn’t see anyone else,but only him I miss him every second of the day I miss everything about him I shut my eyes and saw his image My eyes believed him That he was the only true But I was deprived,deprived Of my love,relationship and dream I was forbidden to have any And I roamed the wide world alone It was so hard to wear a smile when my heart bleeds To bite into my lips To prevent letting out any sound To console myself when there is no one else to do so To ask myself where did I go wrong To assure myself that happy days would be here again To believe that there is still so much to live for But somehow life goes on And here comes the year 2012 I have realised that there is no point wasting my time In sticking and missing with someone who doesn’t worth me ‘Cause there’s more a life than just him I may cry but I’ll make it through And I know that the sun will shine for me again I know God puts people in our lives for a reason And removes them for a better reason Now I couldn’t help but thank God the way things used to be ‘Cause he wasn’t quite a man that I remembered in my dreams I guess the Lord knows what He is doing after all the pain I’ve been through As he walked away,I found the true me And then there I thank the good Lord for the gifts in my life Love is when you have to watch him leave With the knowledge that you will never get him back in your whole life But you know,he’ll be in your heart and mind forever I wish him all the best that life could bring Wishing that this life becomes all that he want to do His dreams stay big and worries stay small This is my wish for him I hope he knows I love him Always have and always will But when you love someone,you got to let them go Never will I regret meeting him though he walked away from me ‘Cause for that one moment in my life,he made me feel I'm one special girl in this world And even though I feel the pain he put me through I know I will love again someday While travelling on your way searching for a brighter day Sometimes the going might get tough Yeah,a little tough; might get a little rough But always build a shield against the storm Reach out for the stars Even if you have to stand on a cactus And have the faith to believe Don’t look back upon your yesterdays You’ll feel the weight of them on the future highways Look for a better chance and a better way Make a search throughout your soul everyday When things go wrong,don’t be downhearted Just smile and say “I’ll get through!! With the help of my Lovely Lord.” “Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers Remember when you’re talking to the Man upstairs And just because He may not answer Doesn’t mean He don’t care… Some of God’s greatest gifts are unanswered prayers…”